– You cannot lose weight while smoking, J. Smoking makes your mind slow, your body weak, your skin grey, your spirit low.
Smoking and self-pity are twins walking hand-in-hand.
You search for self-pity stress to have excuse and go for a smoke.
You end up in 24 hours self-pity stress with a never-ending cigarette between your teeth.
Self-pity is the main reason for being overweight.
It is actually the main reason for a lot of things, but let’s put this observation aside until you finally quit making out with Gollum…
This is what Coco would tell me if she knew that I am smoking again.
Smoking feels like a non-organic parasite draining me of my energy 24/7.
Now, on the 10th day of the non-smoking marathon this parasite hunts me.
It smiles to me with Gollum smile.
It talks to me in Gollum voice.
I am quitting.
Gollum irritates me enormously.