Chapter 26: Can’t sleep. I lost my pants…

The moon is low today.

Huge orange disk is parked at East horizon.

I can see the Moon through my window if I half-sit in bed.

I can’t sleep.

“Get up! Move!”- Coco’s words are spinning through my head.

She is right…

About what?

About lots of things actually.

Failure is merely an option – check.

To kill the enemy – you have to kill the enemy – check.

Beaten and left to recoup your enemy will take its time, gather its strength and return.

This is so true!

All this shit I have been fighting against – returned.

I lost 13 pounds jumping rope every day, eating healthy until one day I slipped into the self pity mode and grabbed a cigarette.

Another day I stopped exercising because “I needed more rest from all the stress”.

Then I moved to a new house and lost my jogging pants…

Nothing can do. Ooooh nothing can doooo. The Merry Song of Nothing Can Do. (The pant part is a joke).

So, how to proceed?

According to Coco there are only two points to the weight loss algorithm:

1) Logging my calories.

2) Creating daily calorie deficit by exercising.

Ok, I go back to loseit.com Lets fill in what I have eaten today.

Hmm, 650 calories over budget, 50 minutes rope jumping.

I take a deep breath, get out of my bed and go outside – jumping.