Chapter 371: Addicted to sugar…

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There are five stages of grief – denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.

I am in the stage two. VERY ANGRY. So angry, that I decided to skip bargaining.

I won’t bargain. You tried to kill me? I will make you evaporate. I will go on for as long as it takes to get you out of my system.

It is difficult. I wake up with a bouncing headache, that follows me along for the whole day. I can’t sleep at night. I can’t stay awake during the day, cry uncontrollably about everything.

It feels like a monstrosity larger than a three stories building attached herself to me, feeding off my juice. Once in a while it takes a break and I get out of prostration, able to work, able to write.

This monstrosity is so real that I literally feel when it stops feeding. I feel her heavy body rolling back, like a fat nasty tick full of my blood, a tick the size of a house. This is the hardest battle I fought so far.

I’ve lost so many times. I am not going to ruin this one. I am so tired of you, you filthy parasite, that I have no strength left to keep you as my pet. I have no choice but to let you go. I do not care how much it hurts. You will dry out trying to keep me a slave.

On May 14, I and my friend D decided to go on a spring detox. A simple procedure of a sugar-free diet.

This is my attempt #100 to quit sugar. During the first 2 weeks, I slipped twice. No. Three times. Today is day 5 of being sugar-free.

It hurts. I cry. I am very angry. No cravings for sugar. Merely pain-induced rage against it.

For the first time in months do I hear the gentle voice of Coco : “Once get rid of her, you get rid of everything that keeps you slave, my love.”

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For ages, I am fighting the windmills of my own limiting beliefs to follow the path of my heart. The ‘reality’ keeps getting in the way. I don’t give up, because in the depth of my soul I know that Victory is Inevitable!

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6 Replies to “Chapter 371: Addicted to sugar…”

  1. Good for you! Don’t beat yourself up for slipping…what’s important is you don’t give up! I am also a sugar addict, and I know how bad it is for me. But at least you’re trying! I ate a bowl of peanut M&Ms last night, and poured 3 spoonfuls into my coffee this morning. 😂 Also, great descriptive writing!

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  2. Hey Rachel, thank you for your support! After those 5 days of feeling like dying, I hope that my new learned disgust for cake and chocolate remains. 🙂 I absolutely don’t want to go through it again. 😀 Much love. Julia

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      1. Thank you Rachel! It feels like the ice broke. Got acne under my nose the size of Texas (never have it normally). Meaning some toxins are leaving and it works 😀

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