I have lost a lot in order to gain… weight.
I used to be light, young, and energetic.
I used to like sports, science, writing, dancing and singing.
I loved entertaining people.
I loved to travel.
I used to be self confident, sexy, friendly, warm, inspiring and fun to be around.
I aspired to become an artist, a writer, a singer of some kind, and a successful business owner on the top of all those things.
One day 12 years ago, I saw myself going through a traumatic divorce, after just giving up extremely lucrative carrier to start my first business venture.
For years in a row I felt devoured alive by fear of ending up penniless, while being clueless as what to do with my business and learning all ins and outs of entrepreneurship on the go.
I saw myself moving towards my dream, while getting enslaved by vicious circle of my marginal business.
I saw myself turning hobby into my business and becoming a slave to my hobby.
I saw myself taking advice from people who have never made it. No, even worse – I saw myself taking advice from people who have never even tried to make it! Taking huge amounts of wrong advice.
I lost my self-confidence.
I ended up chronically stressed, overworked, obese, hating myself, losing myself.
Thinking every day: “Just give it another push, and then you will have all the time in the world to repair the damage”. Until one day I looked into the mirror – and did not recognize myself AT ALL!!!
I was not even sure whether this amount of damage was repairable. Coco said I should give it a try.
What have you lost to gain?
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